2006

I don't know about the rest of you guys, but for me 2006 was fucking epic.
I think this whole year was one big roller coaster. I can't even begin to explain how this year I'll remember more then any other... It really fealt like 2 or 3 years and even then well spaced. I've grown a lot as a person and feel very happy about myself. And even though i am so very glad for what life gave me this year, I hope 2007 is a little easier going.

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blood reincarnate

Retrieve and receive
the belief in deceased
and decrease in your dread of homicidal release
and that's where the flesh begins and the muted echo ends.

I edited the line breaks today and the spelling. I don't recall writing this. I
was far too gone last night. It is one of several little easter eggs I found today.

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The meaning of life and the existance of a god and love. in Ricks words.

The sentence first read in my post is such a confusing subject for most people it tears them to pieces. they find themselves insecure with no clue of what they believe in. Some people have powerful faith and believe so strongly in something it manifests and becomes real to them (not denying it may be real) others Decline the search for a soul and fully believe that earth and science gave us what we have and we are ourselves for the time we live before we die and degrade giving room and vital nutrients to the next round of life. Some like myself find that the search for answers at this period is pointless as the answers have not shown themselves to us. Why spend time on learning where to place your spirit and become so caught up in who you are soulfully you forget who you are logically? I chose to enjoy life without the worry of afterlife at this point seeing as I am not dead yet. I can find joy in my love for people and life and not a higher being at this point and I am fully satisfied with that.

Spirituality and love. Spirituality and love. oh my.

Love. Jack and jill are 15 and 16 or 17 and 18 or 19 and 20 etc. jack and jill have been together for 8 months 23 days. Jack loves Jill. Jill loves Jack. Jack would die without Jill. Jill would fade away without Jack. Jack sleeps with Molly. shit guess he didn't love jill for ever and ever like he promised.

Promising love at such a young age seems so irrational. Infatuation and hormonal attraction are the strongest fealt emotions at such a young age. Love is built on time and trust. No not 6 month no, not 8 months not even a year. Love is something that is so strong very few and harsh things will break it. love is where you can resolve fights in a calm and respectful manner. Teenagers won't ever know true love with a partner. Learn to take things slow. Learn that love takes time and one day when you look at your partner and he or she is part of your family of two (you and him/her) then you'll know you've probably found love(that's after you stop saying it too each other)

I don't see love in my near future. and neither should any young person reading this.
Your all irrational hormone driven bunny rabbits. Now go off and hump like you want too.

These are my beliefs ie on my blog your welcome to dissagree with me.
and as a side note animals and family love are included in that. they can exist
at any age.


What a dream vacation
I am riding the waves of my imagination
and rolling past my lost intention
I am an impenetrable cloud
with everyday life far below me
I don't know where I am
but where I am is exactly where I want to be

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